I just noticed that I have not written or posted since July 6th earlier this year. That is too long of a period between posts. So let's see what we can come up with.
Today is Tuesday. Election Day in the United States. Yeah .... not going to write about that. I am not going to write about politics at all. You all probably pretty much know what my thoughts are ... at least most of you. There are those that think they know where my stance is when it becomes apparent that they do not have a clue.
This whole year has been marred by the CV-19 virus. No sense in talking about that either. Lifestyles for all of us have been completely turned upside down. The thing about this virus thing is that it has been tied to politics and the election and so everyone is up in arms against each other across the board. Nah, not going to write about that either.
Major League Baseball was different this year. To me it was a little disappointing. Because of the virus restrictions, the Majors only played a 60 game season. They went ahead with the playoffs and had a World Series. I decided that for me, this was not a legitimate World Series and should not go into the record books. My basis was that a mere 60 games is not nearly enough games for the cream to rise to the top. You need at least 162 games for the best teams to prove their worth over time. However, I was glad they did play this so called World Series because of the last 30 seconds of game 4. That little amount of time made the whole thing worthwhile. I encourage you to check out the 9nth inning of game 4. Definitely worth your time. But baseball was redefined by the virus and I don't want to write about the virus ... so I am not going to write about baseball.
Actually when you stop to think about it, just about every part of life was touched by either the virus or politics. Perhaps that is why I haven't written in so long.
I was planning on traveling to Alabama in March to visit my mother and family members but thanks to the virus, It was delayed. Mom was in lock down at her living facility so there was not much point in going. I did finally make it to Alabama in mid-October though. My little brother and his wife, myself and my mother and sister and her husband celebrated mom's 90th birthday a month and a half early. Mom was able to escape from her facility to spend a week at my sisters. It was a good visit. It wasn't a perfect visit though. I fell off my sister's front porch one night while staring up at the wonderment of the stars and tore up my knee and my ribs. Those of you who have been following this blog know that I do not have a very high pain threshold and this hurt. Then there was the hurricane that blew through putting my return to Kansas City off by a day so I wouldn't be driving through it. Other than those two things, it was a very good week. I am happy to report that my mother is in very good health and we were able to avoid any political talk.
I don't want this to be a wrap up of the year and it feels like it is turning into that. I want to save that for December.
Social media ... well, I have been limiting my time on Facebook and stuff because, quite frankly, there is too much hatred flying around the election. One of my dear friends accused me of being a troll and told me to go somewhere else to do my trolling. I do not troll. I asked a question concerning a post by said friend that I did not have the answer to. Apparently it offended my friend so I was labeled a troll. I don't play games like that. If I ask a question, it is a sincere one. Then there is all of the ignorance people seem to be showing .... nope, not going to go there. I just have been staying off my computer and the internet a lot. I don't need all of the arguments and stuff in my life right now and I certainly do not need to be called names or labeled as something I am not. When I do get on the internet, it is to get news of those that I care about. How they are doing. Seeing pictures of my nieces and nephews so I can enjoy them since I can't see them. I have reconnected with old friends, a couple who are very special in my life as I was growing up. It has been a good experience.
I can say this about the year so far. I still miss a lot of people who influenced my life and have passed on. That will never change. I still take my grandpa with me everywhere I go in the form of one of his bandanas in my rear pocket of my jeans. I have been carrying one ever since he died. On my way to bed each night, one of the last things I do is kiss my fingers and then touch them to a picture of Barbara that I moved out into the living area of the house. I don't say anything or stop and look at her picture, just give her a tiny kiss each night ... well most nights... at least once a week or so Last week marked 2 years since my dad passed away in that horrible year of 2018. I brought out some more of my Uncle Dan's works of art to display and think of him often when I see the results of his marvelous talent.
Now I often stop and ponder my own aging. I turned 64 last month. One more year until my planned retirement. I remember when grandpa retired and when my father retired. Seems so long ago. Now I am facing my own step into that part of life. My twilight years are definitely upon me.
This brings about thoughts of my own death. The thought of dying does not bother me. I am not scared of dying. One of my friends reminds me often "To every season ..." and she is right. There is a time for everything and that includes dying. Don't get me wrong now, I am not ready to die quite yet. I feel like I have a few more years on this earth left in me. However, if my doctor told me I had a week left? No big deal. I am ready to deal with that possibility.
I do feel like I am starting to burn out at my job, which is kind of sad. I have loved my job my whole adult life. I have loved the company I work for and have been faithful to it. But I am getting tired I think. I began to feel the burnout after Barbara died and it has slowly increased. I think that whole second half of 2018 pretty much burned me out on life in general. Sometimes, I simply do not care anymore. Like this election that we are having today. Yes I think it is important. Yes I plan on voting. Bottom line though, is whatever happens, I am not going to have to live with the outcome for very long. My son will though and that is probably the biggest reason I will vote. Really though, it is just another election. This country has survived many of them with different outcomes. This country will survive this one as well. But I am not going to talk politics ... remember?
Many of you are bragging "I survived the year 2020!" ... I got that beat easily. I survived 2018.
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